I'm not an addict

maybe that's a lie

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Ducky Lee
2 March
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The nice thing about being a heroin addict is that you either have no problems or one big one.
~Richard Schuldenfrei

UPDATE: I'm officially clean of heroin since November 10th, 2007. I am divorced but living with my (ex) husband and my beautiful daughter, Elliot Clay Garibaldi; Elliot was born Sept. 27, 2008. She truly amazing in every way.


Anything else you need to know about me, don't hesitate to ask. Read the journal if you're interested. It's very informative. Otherwise, there is only so much i can put in my info that will remain true for long enough to be worth reading. I'm tired of updating this info every time i move or change my mind about something.

Some things you probably don't want to know about me:

I'm abnormal. I'm a danger junky. I thrive in chaos and confusion; I don't do well with order and routine. My biggest fear is boredom. Life can be very boring. I don't believe in God. I do believe in love. I do believe in hell but i do not believe in an afterlife. Hell is not a place, it's a state of mind. I've been there. Maybe you've been there too.

My favorite things are my beautiful daughter Elliot, my wonderful stepson Vincent, and my husband Jaje (ex-husband on paper but my husband for life), reading/writing, and music. I love to travel. Born in Israel. Raised in Florida. Spent some time living in Miami and now living in Gulfport (St. Pete area), Florida. I am not a good person. I'm a spoiled brat with a drug problem. And that is one of my lesser problems. I'm pessimistic and unapologetic. My journal is mostly friends only due to the nature of its contents. If you're interested, drop me a line, let me know who you are, and i will consider you for the position of friend. If you are interested in befriending me, there are a few things you should keep in mind. It is crucial to always keep your sense of humor at hand. If you take life too seriously, you get boring and i don't do well with boredom. Instead of crying in the face of disaster, try laughing. Avoid unnecessary acts of ignorance. Especially around me, i have zero tolerance for stupidity. Feel free to hate me for my chosen activities. Feel free to tell me about it if you have nothing better to do with your time. However, do not expect me to care. Do not expect me to respond. Just remember, you can waste your time but you're not going to waste mine. Not all drug users are bad people. If you're bad people, don't bother me. If you're not bad people, the door is open for you. Welcome to my world.

Music is very important to me. I'm a rock star at heart, even though I lack any talent in that area. I tried several times to learn guitar and I plan to learn to play drums in the near future when i have a place that I can actually have a drum set.

Equally (if not more) important to me is reading and writing. Words are important to me. I am an aspiring writer with dreams of one day writing a book, maybe a memoir. Music and words have gotten me through all the tough times in my life. Without them, I don't think I'd still be sane. That is assuming I am still sane. Which is impossible to say for sure. Life has thrown many crazy things at me and I've somehow made it through them. I don't know why I'm still alive. I often wonder about that. I sometimes have a tendency to ramble on and on about nothing important. As I seem to be doing here.

I am currently working as a freelance writer. I have a contract with a company now but I am still available for odd jobs. I also do some light counseling (mostly for free up to now but I plan to start charging for it). I just received my B.Sc. in Psychology from Nova Southeastern University and I hope to continue my education in the near future. I feel education is very important.

I sometimes post in livejournal just because i need a friend and don't have one. So i use this journal as a substitute for real people. That's okay, right?

I sometimes wish I lived in the 70s. I think, all around, life was just much better then. I'm in love with Malcolm Mcdowell, even though he's already in his 60s. I'm obsessed with Hitler and have been since as far back as I can remember. Not because of what he did. But because he was a genius and a psychopath, two things I find strangely and undeniably appealing in human beings. I'm drawn to strange things, extraordinary things. Normal is boring and boredom is my biggest enemy. I am seeking entertaining people to be my friends. For I am in constant need of entertainment. Any weird, crazy people out there? Please get in touch. I want to know you.

By the way, I'm mostly on Quora now. Look me up. Or click here: https://www.quora.com/Lee-Garibaldi
This is where I do most of my serious writing. I also have a blog which I started and hopefully can actually maintain (though I have not really done so lately because I've been so busy).

If you're more into fake stuff or want to see updates about my life and lots of photos of my baby and me and my family and stuff like that, you can follow me on facebook: http://www.facebook.com/mommyducky

The following are some words which are not my own but which I find inspiring:

Junk is not a kick. It's a way of life.
~William S. Burroughs

Believe me! The secret of reaping the greatest fruitfulness and the greatest enjoyment from life is to live dangerously!

By means of shrewd lies, unremittingly repeated, it is possible to make people believe that heaven is hell – and hell heaven. The greater the lie, the more readily it will be believed.
~Adolf Hitler

Avoid the world, it's just a lot of dust and drag and means nothing in the end.
~Jack Kerouac

The masses have little time to think. And how incredible is the willingness of modern man to believe.
~Benito Mussolini

To succeed in the world it is not enough to be stupid, you must also be well-mannered.

Enlightened people seldom or never possess a sense of responsibility.
~Goerge Orwell

All say, "How hard it is that we have to die" – a strange complaint to come from the mouths of people who have had to live.
~Mark Twain

play with me, i make sexy noises!

Injection is love
Made by the very beautiful jackscheetz


I have a baiting journal. If anyone wants to read it. theres not much on there now but i add stuff from time to time when inspiration (and the right moron) comes along.

give me more fuckin *HUGS*

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In honor of machinefuck:
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